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You Guan Xi
yuo gwan she - it has a relation


This is how it’s said
in Chinese.
One of these days
I’m going to dig
a ditch in my chest
go past the depth of a grave
and keep going
until I reach the mainland
with one language

in the cells of my spine

a DNA double helix
has one spiral
written in Chinese,
the other in English.

I’m going to put
my shovel to the strands,
going to uproot
my father’s language,
but my ribs won’t change.
My bones will still have
some Statue-of-Liberty marrow
although I will never be
any whiter.

My tongue
still moves, sometimes
in its old ways,
saying, “I want, I want”
all the time . . .
but I am digging,
digging, digging.

I could do this
to many generations.
Shall I shovel
in the cemetery
and remarry
my grandparents?


-- Jennifer Crystal Fang-Chien


"You Guan Xi" first appeared in Eclipse in 2002.